The psalmist

Its Year 2016! Greetings and happy new year though its already the month of February! I have not been blogging! Had a rough bout last year on an addiction which I'm not prepared yet to share publicly. Here's the thing about addiction. When I am faced with frustrations in life, when I feel the pain that goes with it, in order to escape it, I turn to that particular form of addiction(I shall call it "nonsense" hereinafter!). First try, it seems like its a relief albeit knowing that its sin. Then there's the battle of "don't-do-it!" and the total opposite of that. Unfortunately, when the pain comes again, the winning team is the of course the "do-it!" team. It goes on and on, the repentance and falling to sin again, goes on and on. Like a never ending cycle! Do I get sick of it? Yes, I do! It sucks! Keep telling myself I gotta end this or else I'm gonna fall deep into the abyss. The deeper it is, the harder it gets to get out of it. So...

The things that has been happening since mid June until recently got my head scratching, like the babe in this pic!       Really? Say what? Speechless? How can that be?  I was expecting that when there are overwhelming evidence there ought to be a case met out. But..no. Instead, the tables were turned against the ones who acted on the available evidence. With what's going on my beloved land, I can't help but wonder whether I got my law right. All those 3 years of legal study, bar exams, the practice itself, has seemingly gone to waste if things are to go on this way. There seems to be no justice here(have mercy!) The changes are overwhelming. I don't know what God is doing BUT I do rest assure, that He is not folding His hands in relaxation mode. God has a plan. Perhaps, this turn of event is shaking the people to stop being complacent. To rise up for justice and fairness. To be bold even if its requires us to face off suffering and death.  ...

While I was walking at the streets, here and there, everywhere, I see people going about their ways either talking on the phone. & if they are static, they'll be looking at their handphone. Hello! Peeps! Can't you watch where you going or be aware of your surrounding? If only they knew they are an easy prey to the snatch thieves lurking out there! Or worst, who knows there's an emergency situation whereby we need to evacuate(oh yea..call me paranoid, but when it does happens, you gotta thank me!). Its alarming that we allow technology to distract us. I believe that a majority of our hours are spent on technology alone. Not only does it distracts us from productivity, it causes us our relationship with people! Oh dear....wonder what would this generation end up as. Cringe... Back in the day, where there's no such thing as technology, people still have distractions in their life. Remember what Jesus told Peter and the sons of Zebedee. "Watch and pray, lest y...

This picture was taken from the NST. Its about 4 tourist who posed nude on Mount Kinablau recently and was remanded for having committed such acts. Many were grieved by the acts of these nudist and have blamed them as having caused the earthquake. Me? I won't go to that extreme BUT I cannot blame the Sabahans, as the mountain is considered to be sacred grounds to them. When a matter is sacred, we need to show them respect and keep to their rules. After all, its their place, its their ground. Not ours. And I just don't know where these nudist put their brain..ahh...yes, too much nudity, that they are stripped off any form of intellects. Anyway, like I have said, these nudist did not cause the earthquake. Rather, they have committed a criminal offence. It baffles me why would they do such a thing? What is so great that they have to strip on that mountain. What are they trying to prove? Well, one thing they did prove is that they are obnoxious people, stupid, rude and disre...

On this day, I celebrated my birthday. I'm so grateful indeed to be blessed with another day to live. An opportunity given by God to make amends, to seize the day and achieve the goals planned out for me. On this same day, Sabah has declared a day of mourning for the lives that were lost due to the earthquake. My facebook is flooded with news of the unfortunate incident, pictures of the young students and guides who died due to the quake. My heart aches seeing it. Most of them are so young. http://www.theborneopost.com/2015/06/06/monday-declared-day-of-mourning-for-sabah-out-of-respect-for-victims-and-families/ Looking at my life in light of the young lives that were lost, one may think, oh, its such a pity that they have lost their life at such a young age. Well, for me, it doesn't matter how long we live here on earth. What matters most is whether we have lived our life here well or not. As for the lives of the guides who were lost, some are even younger than me, I ...

Lately, my level of patience & showing love has been tested. A fellow friend in Christ got involved with an unbeliever. As much as my heart aches seeing her going against the very thing which we have been taught in Scriptures about BNG relationships, I had to remind myself that I am to love the person & hate the wrong. I wish not to confront (even with much grace within), fearing being shut off from the relationship. But if I were to keep mum, especially when I know that close friends are accountable to each other, then her blood shall fall on my hands. Besides, real friends are there to tell us what is wrong with us even when it hurts. Oh God, I hate confrontations! Well, needless to say it didn't go too well. The tables were turned against me. It was highlighted that I am not worthy of comment due to certain flaws in my attitude(which I did not deny & telling her, I'm working on it). And the list goes on and on. I know I'm not perfect, but if everyone has...

At last, I've written a song after many months for not doing so. But this time I'm not going to do gospel songs. Chose to do delve into indie folk vibe..something that has been my desire. I got my muse back having encountered relationship that was not a healthy one...not me of course. Nevertheless, it inspired me. Behind it all I am annoyed with a certain girl who takes her boyfriend for granted. It was a relationship which prior to it all happening, I have advised her not to get into it but neah...she did not listened..Anyway..here's a portion of the song, the gist of it all: Don't play with love, its not a game, Don't turn what's pure into a shame, I've said it then, & I'll say it now, You're not there... Don't play with love, its not a game, You play it wrong, one would go insane, I've said it then, & I'll say it now, You're not there.. Yes, to that girl..I've said it before it all started.....