The psalmist

Due to the recent economy downturn, my business has not been doing so well. I've been suffering for years now and I'm hoping that things would take a turn soon. Hopefully! When Sunday comes, I always think to myself: How to give in such a time like this? I'm in business, so I don't have the luxury of a fixed income. If I give, what's going to happen to me.  However, I am convicted that no matter what is the economy, I am to give my tithes and offering. No compromise! Its not that God needs it. Its what God's Word has stated and I am to obey. Give I shall, despite how painful it is. Giving is an act of worship. Giving does require sacrifice! Well, what do you know! The next day, the very amount I gave in my offering, and the amount that I gave to bless others, came back to me! And the amount which I got back was a little bit more than what I have given. This is not the first time, by the way. I have been experiencing this for weeks after weeks now. I

The flood came to Sarawak again this year. Sigh! My heart goes out to those affected by it. Here are some pics taken by our local residents. Villagers from Bau area being evicted to the nearest retreat centres. Oh my dear Waterfront! How swollen is the Sarawak River! My heart goes out to the villagers who are living at the river side. This is the only connection to Sri Aman, Betong, Sibu up till Miri! I hope the water recede soon so that cleaning works could take place.

I hate addictions! It took away my identity. Every time I indulge, the very bits which forms a part of me is stripped away. Many times, I felt like this:  What did addiction took from me? Here's a number of list of things that I want to specifically state: (1) my health. (2) my clarity and sharpness of mind. Which affected my job performance. (3) productivity. (4) relationship with God & others. Why? Coz you wanna spend more time with your addictions, not with the rest of the world! (5) empathy toward others. The aim of addiction is numbness! Not only does it numbs our feeling so that we don't feel stressed out with our problems, it numbs out the feelings(the necessary ones) towards our loved ones and the needy. (6) creativity. This is one of the dreaded loss! I have not been writing songs or blogging during that awful time. (7) my hobbies! I have not been singing on the guitar and piano. Not been listening to music for inspiration. Sucks! (8) time! Was

Its Year 2016! Greetings and happy new year though its already the month of February! I have not been blogging! Had a rough bout last year on an addiction which I'm not prepared yet to share publicly. Here's the thing about addiction. When I am faced with frustrations in life, when I feel the pain that goes with it, in order to escape it, I turn to that particular form of addiction(I shall call it "nonsense" hereinafter!). First try, it seems like its a relief albeit knowing that its sin. Then there's the battle of "don't-do-it!" and the total opposite of that. Unfortunately, when the pain comes again, the winning team is the of course the "do-it!" team. It goes on and on, the repentance and falling to sin again, goes on and on. Like a never ending cycle! Do I get sick of it? Yes, I do! It sucks! Keep telling myself I gotta end this or else I'm gonna fall deep into the abyss. The deeper it is, the harder it gets to get out of it. So