The psalmist

Towards the end of last year, I made a wrong move that left me emotionally scared. I've been grappling with the 'emos' for months. I've prayed to God for deliverance but months passed by and it didn't come. I was in a state of despair and hopelessness. I told God I want to forget! I'm remorseful over this bad decision and I want to forget. I want to move on. Is it possible to forget? Is it possible to let go of the hurt and not remember the past hurt? For the life of me, I have not heard of testimonies of forgetting the past(not yet, perhaps there are) and feeling no more pain due to the past. I asked God, is it possible? Praise God! I got my prayer answered. I don't remember the past incident anymore. I don't feel the pain now. I don't feel bitter towards the person involved. Nor do I feel condemned for the foolish act done because when God forgives, He forgives and forgets! He can make us forget. Even when I do recall, it serves as a reminder for m...

This post is way past due! Somehow or rather, I missed out on blogging about my birthday bash for year 2010 and 2011. Last year, I decided to make a grand celebration. I had it at a restaurant and invited my close circle of friends. I just had the need to do a big bash because I felt that the age, 33, is very significant. You see, Jesus died at the age of 33. For me, the big bash is a symbolic act of celebrating my 'death'. Not physically as in bodily. But more to death to self. It was my prophetic act of dying to self. If we don't die to self, the new cannot arise. No more playing games. Its time to get serious as I desire to see God move in my church & in this nation. If I want to see this come to pass, I gotta die. If I wanna be effective & receive the supernatural strength, I have to die. I remembered blowing the candle and deep in my heart saying "Good riddance old self! Let the new come!" Truly, truly. The new has come. I've gone through much fr...

Most romantic movies/drama have this classic cliche scene. The guy/girl says "I love you." When the other hesitates to reciprocate or doesn't say anything, then the one who poured out his love got hurt. Why? Obviously for the reason that when a person really loves another, and vice-versa, both would not have any problem in saying the very words "I love you." And its the same with God. He tells us that He loves us. But would we be able to say "I love You, too" back to Him and really, really mean what we say? Beginning September, 2011, I was having this bout of loosing my passion for God. Singing, making music for Him was difficult. Needless to say spending time with God through the reading of His Word & prayer. I was struggling. The fact that I had to worship lead & conduct the CF made it even more worst. How could I do all these without the love for God? What I have felt throughout this period of time is that I'm doing this out of obedience...